Tuesday, January 27, 2009
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Friday, January 9, 2009
This is so hard to write as Dozer lost his battle with Hemangiosarcoma today. I love him and miss him more than words can describe. My life will not be same without him. He was an amazing dog. Actually the most incredible dog I've ever known. He was special. He gave us so much and helped to change the views of so many regarding what a Pit Bull is really like. He left his mark on so many and will forever be in our hearts.
I would have done anything to keep him in my life, but it was clear that my poor little man was just too sick. Radiographs showed that he had a mass on/in his spleen that has ruptured. He was bleeding internally. He was vomiting and screamed in pain when trying to have a bowel movement. His stool was bloody. He couldn't walk, could barely lift his head and had a vacant look in his eyes. For the first time in his life he refused food. Although he did manage to give me one last kiss that I will cherish forever.
Our vet refused to perform surgery to remove his spleen as she didn't think he would survive the procedure. If he had she didn't think he would make it to have his stitches removed. We didn't know what to do; bring him home or euthanize him. We asked him what he wanted and just when we were about to take him home with us he began vomiting and throwing himself backwards. It was clear what we had to do. And it was the most difficult and heart wrenching decision I've ever made. I would have done anything to save him and keep him with me, but sadly I was out of options.
Attached is my new favorite picture of Dozer. That photo shoot for the Pinups for Pitbulls calendar was one of my fondest memories and thinking of how he tried to eat the props brings a smile to my face. Thank you Pinups for Pitbulls for allowing Dozer and myself the opportunity to be part of your organization and family. I love you all!
Dozer, Mommy loves you and will miss you always! You are and always will be my best dog! Rescuing you was one of the best moments of my life. And I cherish having shared the last 7 years with you. I lost a piece of my heart today when I said goodbye to you. I've never felt such heartache, sorrow and emptiness. Goodbye my sweet Dozer (aka PoePoe, Chewy & Doughboy)! I love you! xoxo <3<3<3>
I just want to see him and hug him and tell him how much I love him.
Please Dozer, get better. I love you, so much! You are and always will be the best dog I've ever known.